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So my logic today begins like this: it's not as if I can predict what will make me happy in the future very accurately.

This is especially true given my occasionally capricious nature. It's not that I enjoy shifting from one thing to the next, but it's something that happens naturally for me. I go through many ideas and life-views, and since I want reaffirming data for each, new pieces of information (anecdotes from friends, or stories about the success of this or that person) that can tip the balance in favor of one view or the other are like to do just that.

I'm not excusing myself from the fact that I do this; it's definitely my own doing that makes me flit like I do and my lack of steadiness in pursuing expertise in a few special areas.

Maybe now that I see how this unhappy it makes me, I'll take steps to minimize the disappointment I feel in my own accomplishments.

The other reason I'm so indecisive is this pressure to pick just one thing, or a few things, that I feel from my above conclusions. I know I'm not satisfied with my capriciousness, and I try to force myself into selecting something to remedy that. The problem is then the pressure I feel to choose makes me constantly question whether what I've chosen is really "right." But the thing is that the question of "rightness" isn't (haha) the right question. It's not as if I have this one time to choose and that's it, no more choices in the future. I can do what I've found to be the right path at the time, and not be affected by hindsight bias.